i guess when people would look at me with much scrutiny and undefined questions inside their mind, i can't help but seek for a refuge..i always wanted to belong to something or someone i can always be proud of..i guess my life hasn't shown me the way to see things the way i want to understand it.
in some set of chances, i would like to really matter..i dont want to be just someone whome they call cheska..maybe, just maybe, it will happen..
i play timid and meek all the times..i do my own things on my own terms and i play safe beside my beliefs..i could not contend with what lies ahead..i am afraid..
i seem unseen..i seem unimportant..its ok..i guess, my life will just be like this..
but honestly, i want my life be brief..
